The week has been pretty hectic for me lately. Im really looking forward to tomorrow and the long weekends. I feel the need for a getaway. Too many things on my mind that i wish to release. Always easier said than done, sadly.. But one thing's for sure, i cant run away from problems. Sooner or later, i'll have to suck it up and just embrace them. Something of which im not much of a fan of. Hmm..
I dont know why it's taking me sucha long time to blog about this post. I find myself staring at the screen with many thoughts running through my head but nothing to type. Okay, maybe not nothing. But i dont know where to start, how to start. But then again, some things are better left unsaid? I dont know.. but what i do know is the people who i can always confide to no matter what. I guess it's just one of those "fuck dammit, i feel like shit"- days. Gah.
Im starting to feel like a very contradicting person. I can always give people advices and feel accomplished when things get better for them, etcetera. But i find it hard to use my own advices and imply them on myself. I remember what i told J, "Fuck what others say cuz in the end, it's just the both of you. As long as both of you love each other, that's all that matters.." But now when im in that position, that similar spot.. man it feels like shit. But nevertheless, thanks J. I know you have a lot of things you've to take care of but yet you're still here for me. I know you feel.. upset/angry/shitty for me about the whole situation, but.. look on the "bright" side. We shall feel like shit together. ((:
Speaking of together, im meeting VNZ tomorrow after so long! I really miss them. We've all been so busy with our lives and our schedules always clash. /: I havent seen N for almost a month! Z even longer! But the last thing i want to do is to worry them. I gotta just push all the negative shit to the back of my head and hopefully they wont resurface for awhile.. Am also finally meeting baby on Saturday! I just really want to treasure every moment i have with him. Meeting him also comes in handy because i always feel happy when im with him. ((: Missing him has been a little too much for me to handle lately. But still, i cant wait to meet him!
So it turns out that i do know what to type afterall. Ha. This has got to be the longest of entries that i took so long to type. Lol. xx
As long as i have you right here by me.
