Sometimes i wish i was a better girlfriend. Hate it when i fuck things up sometimes without even realizing it. You're precious to me. Very. Sometimes.. i wish i never had a past, even though i know you love me for the way i am and who i was. But contradicting enough, i believe everything happens for a reason. Even for my past. I'm always glad to have met you. Right day, right time. Random circumstance? No. But fate. Two roads intertwine.
I know what i want. And that's you. You're everything i want, everything i need. I was a very practical person. I dont believe someone can be another person's life. I dont believe in promises. I hold no expectations. No expectations, no disappointments. "You mean the world to me", is bullshit. But that was because i didnt understand. Until you showed me how love can be so wonderful, so unselfish. I know you do love me even if you dont say it all the time. You really gave me hope, and changed the way i see things. I finally understood how can one person mean so much to another.
It's like.. me standing somewhere waiting, looking out for you. Then you appeared, you stood out from the crowd. You still make me blush, my heart beats faster and you take my breath away. My vision seems blur and only you're clear. It's like you're the only one there. Then you smile.. omg, i melt. It was like the rest of the world evaporated, and you became my world. Happens everytime.
With you, that's the future i want and hope to head and to have. A part of me feels you deserve so much better than me, but i'm just that selfish to let you go. "Fight for your happiness..", they say. And i know i would for you. I'm going to do better baby. I'm not gonna let you down. Darling, wait and see..
So do you want this (you and me, our relationship, our love) for the rest of your life?
I know i do.
